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2012-01-24T12:18:00.000+08:00

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2012-01-22T13:57:00.005+08:00

My Last Post. (And happy Chinese New Year's Eve)

The pictures explain everything. Shopping with Chloe, Weiwen's BBQ Party, Ice Skating with Joey and Yehlin. And yup, it's finally chinese new year!! Can't wait for.. school to reopen. But I've decided to private this blog as soon as school reopens. So to celebrate (?) the death of this blog, okay fine, commemorate the death.. I ALSO DECIDED TO DO AN OFFICIAL VLOG. Wheeee~ It's nothing much actually. I will probably be doing that more often. It's quite fun though it's pretty AWKWARD. I use that word one too many times. Hehe. I love ya. My new blog url will be up though, once school reopens. Hehe. I need time to fill it up with stuffs. :D

Bye kayymie.bs readers, if any. ^^b

2012-01-18T22:43:00.013+08:00

Can I not see you again?
Cause seeing you hurts my pride.

Hey lovelies, and handsomies! ^^ I'm back to blogging (hands itchy) but I'm trying to control my frequency of blogging. Yup, I feel that I shouldn't share my personal stuffs with everyone already, though I want to. Some things are better not said. And I can't not say it when I have a blog.. I am bad at knowing what to say and what not to say.. So.. I conclude that I'll be blogging once or twice a month like that. Maybe more if I.. can't take it. LOL. Okay, I should cut short whatever I wanna say and get on with the pictures.

Few days back, on Friday, I went out with the people below to bowl!! Was going to AJC for my auditions but they postpone it WHILE I WAS ON MY WAY THERE. You have no idea how pissed off I'm. Went Causeway Point to walk around but Chloe.. LOL nvm. Went back to 4M people after Chloe, then out with Yehlin and Lynn.

I was skinny... T.T Cause I just recovered that day, and was weighing at my lightest!!! :( Now I'm getting heavier but whatever, it's my healthy weight.

After that day, forgot which day, I went out with my primary school friends. 6K'07 Class BBQ at Jon's house. I have lost count of the number of times I went Jon's house for BBQ. LOL. We are probably gonna be JC friends again. Woah.. How amazing.

Rachel was late. She reached Jon's house only at 1030?! Because she had work. Anyway, the sun was not giving us mercy that day. Blazing hot, I tell you. The marshmallows melted in the sun and the drinks were hot. We went into shade.. And I'm pissed off, yet again. Sometimes, you really wanna get away from where you are, and be where you belong.. Ever had that feeling? I keep having that that day, no reasons, don't ask. I, to be brutally honest, feel really uncomfortable and disgusted by some people. And this shall be the time I say something I hate saying.. NO OFFENCE. Hmm, offence taken? Too bad. I suppose Felina understands what I'm feeling throughout the whole day. But not to be mistaken, I had a hell of a day! ^^ It's really awesome to get together with my friends again!!! Especially Felina, Amanda, Wynnette, Elvin, Junhao, Iain etc. Jon.. err... LOL. I'm bored of him :/ What an entertaining day.

Then Jon's birthday arrived on Sunday, but the BBQ was postponed to Monday. The sun was.. damn it, what's wrong with you Mr. Sun? And you have no idea what I was wearing. So I shall explain. I'm having a bit, okay not a bit, A LOT OF PROBLEMS WITH MY CLOSET THESE DAYS. One day, I went out of house with BROWN AND RED, and on Monday I went to a BBQ with a sweater. No, you didn't see wrong. I have no idea what's wrong with me. And just nice, on that day, I was so into bbq-ing the food. So I stood infront of the pit for an hour? Hai.

If you hadn't notice, my hair is shitzxc too. LOL don't mind my spelling. I'm feeling weird. I look like I have two feelers. Look carefully.

Finally managed to enjoy some food after BBQ-ing. Got forced to went up to the ClubHouse afterwards. Played cards!!! ^^ I'm in love. I look awful in the picture but I don't really care about my image anymore. It's been ruined.

Don't I look constipated here? LOL. I like.

Yeah so that's it. I lost trust in my fashion sense. It's gone since holidays begun. (Excuses) Anyway.. I said something I regret saying on twitter last night. But honestly, I'm shocked. I was watching ShaneDawson as usual and there was this song playing at the end of his video, called Second To None. And guess what? The artist is none other than Chris Crocker, the girl who loved Britney Spears and cried for her. But fuck, he's damn hot right now. As in, he's a MAN now. But I read the comments and I kinda agree that he's just better looking compared to the past. Maybe I'm just blinded for a moment. He's not hot.. I'm not into gay guys.. T.T His songs ain't good actually. I don't like them, in fact, I only like Second To None. I think all hot guys are gay. How? What's happening to me? :(

Reine's belated present to me. She gave it to me JUST. LIKE TODAY. Lol, so about today, I met up with Reine and SiLing. They accompanied me to NYJC Dance audition, after much persuading at Causeway Point. And the audition was awesome. Not that I think I did well, infact, I think I did quite badly. Talked to Toylene Zhangyi and Valerie there so I wasn't much alone.. I'm nervous when I feel lonely. HAHAHAHA. And seeing them so flexible, I surprisingly became able to do my splits and almost everything I could six months ago. Like WOAH. The dance instructor was WOAH too. His hair = (Y). Impressive.

So we were taught a contemporary piece that we had to learn and we were suppose to freestyle after whatever we learn. Mean the music will carry on playing and we carry on dancing whatever we wanted. I didn't know so for the first try, I stone after 10 seconds of freestyle. Then I saw that everyone was still dancing. So .. I FASTER DANCE LAH. ANYHOW WHACK MOVEMENTS. T.T The second try was better but worse. I don't know how to say. BUT I DID SO MANY SPLITS THAT ON THE FOURTH (?) SPLIT I TRIED TO DO, I told myself, "eh, you do so many splits not sian meh?", so I did a halfway split and got back to standing position. Wtf. I feel so embarrassed. I kept rolling on the floor. At least that was what I thought I was doing. I think I looked.. damn childish.

Ah kill me. Hopefully I get accepted into their school. I love NYJC Dance. <3

After looking through the picures.. I think I got uglier. :/ I had facial yesterday and did my eyebrows too. It was so painful... The pain of beauty. Sigh.

INFINITE.

2012-01-12T14:54:00.002+08:00

A moment to spare

Gotten my results few days before. It wasn't what I expected and I was really devastated when I saw the results. I didn't cry cause I couldn't believe it. Instead, I smiled and told Yehlin and Sixuan, while waiting to key in my particulars. But after that it dawned upon me that whatever I got was real and was gonna stay. It wouldn't have fell, I wouldn't have break down if I didn't speak. But I did. And what happened after is for me to know.

They say crying is accepting. Really, it is.

So I got over it and even though I was still feeling really bad, I went for NYJC's Open house the next day. Surprisingly, it was fantastic. And I love the dance there a lot. It felt so homely. It will be amazing if I can get in there. ^^ The next day I went to visit other school's open house with Chloe, and met Yehlin and Lynn at AJC. AJC's really attractive to me in its own ways though many beg to differ. Well, I had initially planned to change my mind to AJC because really, their results are great. I wouldn't regret going I think. But none of friends seem to be going there and that's just sad. Whereas for NYJC, everyone seems to be going. I had a very hard time last night thinking about my options. Really really hard, but .. Sigh. It's okay. I'm gonna go for dance auditions tomorrow (AJC) and next Wed (NYJC). Just in case. I wonder whether that's acceptable. And I wonder whether their dance will accept me. I'm not a great dancer to be honest. So I'm having fears. Please let me go to either of these two JCs.. :/

..You weren't there for me.

Chloe's going to accompany me tomorrow for the auditions but I'm going NYJC alone next week. Clara assured me it'll be fine to go alone!!! ^^ Okay, I guess so!! I must be independent!! :D Don't wish to trouble any of my friends anyway. I have also been thinking about quitting my hobby, to blog. I have come a long way LOL. I have been blogging continuously without stopping for 6 years, starting at late P5 I think. But some of it got hacked and deleted T.T

But I think it's time that I stop and pursue greater things. I mean, I'll probably come back when I have time (holidays) but I think maybe it's the end. Somehow, I got a feeling I will still blog.. BUT I WILL PERSERVERE. This shall be one of the last few posts you'll see.

:D

2012-01-08T12:59:00.002+08:00

Time has come to take me away from you.

Changes have become very evident.
Is there a way I can turn time around, like an hour glass?
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I have been dreaming about my Olevel results. Ever since it ended. But it has become more frequent the past few days. Twice yesterday, once today. And they were all nightmares. Meaning I didn't do well in my dream. I'm really nervous and afraid. :( And there's a chain message sending around today. I hate chain messages. They're like curses sent to you by your close friends. Tsk. Please don't send me anymore. It's really frustrating. Like I just woke up from the nightmare and *poof* "Please send this on or you won't get good results". What is this man?! Don't really wanna send it on because firstly, it's troublesome. Secondly, it's irritating. Lastly, it doesn't make any sense. It's pure nonsense. I hate to be a realist, but I really don't believe in luck. Okay, maybe a little during a 'crisis' like this. BUT, seriously, what's done is done. No matter how hard you pray, the results are THERE for you already. Luck doesn't count, hardwork counts, diligence counts, time counts.

Now you see?
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Anyway, talking about changes, I was on the plane the other day, star-gazing (because it's so pretty looking at them from the plane). And I noticed that the stars are only clear and visible when you don't look directly at them. The more you try to locate them, the harder they are for you to find. I think it's similar to changes around you, no? If you're with someone for a long time, you will never really notice the changes in their looks/behaviour etc. But if you haven't seen someone for a long time, and finally get to meet them, they might look really different. That's when changes seem so much clearer to you. So much more distinct.

And why on earth am I talking about this? It's because I realise that my parents are not getting any younger. I know it's the most random thing I can say, but I realise that more and more wrinkles are appearing on their faces, and I fear. I cannot stand alone in the world, but I am forced to, sooner or later. It's so scary I don't even wanna think about it any further. On the bright side, I also noticed how much my dog has grown. From a small little puppy that could escape from my house through the small hole in the gate, to a full grown puppy that's 7kg heavy. It's his birthday today, so happy 3rd birthday Baby!!! ^^ I don't think I'm celebrating though, but I shall go get a present for him. :)

It's so true. Changes are inevitable. Saw that from Karmen's facebook. Haha. I shall spend more time with my dog today. Love y'all.

2012-01-07T23:57:00.002+08:00

What a rojak post!

(Lynn's birthday, Poly Open House, Xavier's birthday and 4M Girls outing)

All the pictures are with lynn. Cause it's her birthday what! Should use her camera instead!!! So I kindly helped her snap pictures with her DSLR.. Ehem. HAHAH okay, it's because I really love taking pictures with DSLRs. Makes me feel so professional. But all the while, Daniel kept snatching it away :( So, Lynn has some problems uploading the pictures. Thus, I might not be able to see them ever again.. It's okay!!!

Went to the Poly Open House on Thursday. Wanted to visit NgeeAnn Poly only, but we ended up visiting Singapore Poly too. Well, I personally think that NgeeAnn Poly is so much friendlier. Maybe because I was sick when I reached SP. Meaning I have no mood to walk around at all. So I only take the goodie bag, and left for home. We met Chloe's friend, Ranald at NgeeAnn Poly. HAHA, it was so funny because he was tending the magic sand booth, and while he was explaining to us about hydrophobia and all, we kept laughing. So mean. Hehe, and well, it was a hilarious meeting, I swear. :b

We visited the School of Film & Media Studies and the School of Humanities. I think that FMS is really interesting!!!! But too bad, I'm not really into it that much. Whereas for the other school, I have been wanting to get into Psychology Course. But now that I know what's planned ahead for me in that course, I feel so.. 'meh' by it. I asked them whether it was a difficult course, am I stupid or what? And they replied that we had to write quite a lot of essays. Career options includes being a Social Worker.. :/ I don't wanna end up being one. I wanna become a Psychologist. :( Guess this OpenHouse makes me wanna go JC even more. Not saying that Poly sucks, but I don't feel at ease in such a carefree environment and I'm afraid I'll choose the wrong course. I like how there are many friendly people in NgeeAnn though. Hai.

After the OpenHouse, I went home to throw up. Then I slept for awhile before going out again. I swear I'm destroying my body bit by bit. I feel really nausea even now. But I just woke up.. So anyway, I reached Maysprings at 18:30. They were already BBQ-ing the food. But I couldn't eat the food there, neither can I eat the cake. Because my doctor told me I musn't eat any oily or milky food. All I did there was watch them eat and talk. I think I was kinda moody though, cause I was feeling super duper drowsy. Stupid medicine. T.T I did try to talk and get myself involved haha. BATTLE THE ILLNESS MAN! >:)

The pictures got blacker cause I didn't wanna use flash. And my camera just sucks in dim lighting. I WANT A DSLR!!! :( Clara's one is so fun to play with. She has most of the pictures taken that day. Go find yourself yeah!!! Facebook. ^^

Anyway, today I woke up pretty early to meet Yehlin at CCK, then we went back to CSS CCA Open House together. Saw some of the juniors and felt pretty.. welcomed. HAHA. But Lester said Vilau was chasing them out of the school so we tried pretty hard not to let him see us. Didn't stay for long though, cause my stomach started feeling really bloated. But I was hungry. It's such a horrible feeling. Went to eat at Teban, but I had no appetite at all so I only drank a few mouth of soup. I think I kinda puke after I drank. :/ I thought I was better but I was so wrong. Met up with Reine Radiance and Siling at JE interchange. Our initial plan was to go Marina Barrage to picnic and fly kite. But I was sick, so was Reine. Her face was super white!!! It's quite scary. We went WestCoast in the end, with me trying to puke every minute. T.T I wanted to puke so badly but I couldn't. Couldn't do it in public.

So I called my parents to pick me up. And I threw up as soon as I reached home. LOL. Much better right now, hopefully. Anyway, I went to sleep and I got nightmares about my Olevel results. I told myself "This ain't real" in my dreams cause my results were terrible. L1R5 16 I think? But no matter how hard I try to wake myself up from that dream, I just couldn't. :/

Okay, I think I typed too much. Shall separate it into another post. Hehe. Below are some videos from this week. ^^ and last week.

Enjoy!

2012-01-07T01:51:00.002+08:00

Sitting on a plane, sandwiched between layers of clouds.

Below are videos and pictures of my Hainan trip over 2011 and 2012. I celebrate my new year there ^^. It's a lot of pictures so I decided to post some only. Hehe. It's a really amazing holiday. Too bad I got sick right after the trip. Had stomach flu and vomited several times. Really horrible. :( I didn't really get to shop much since the stuffs there ain't that cheap.

Anyway, like I said, I went there to visit my relatives and pay a visit to my great grandparents. It's amazing cause they had firecrackers to welcome us! My first time seeing firecrackers hahaha. The food there was not bad too :D Made friends with a few little kids. It's kinda sad cause the twins got separated. I think it's due to financial problems that the mother gave away one twin to another family. :(

The butterfly is super duper big please!!!

This house is four storeys high, it's super big. I'm jealous man.

I'm kinda lazy to explain every single detail of the trip. But basically, we went to Haikou for the first day, and there was a few relatives who came to bring us around. They have this stationery shop there so we went to visit it.

The second day we went to visit another relative that has a coffee shop. o_o And I swear the food there is so delicious. So mouth-watering. Anyway, on the third day, we went to Jiaji to visit my ancestors. Then the 4th and 5th day is plain shopping at Sanya, which is quite a hot area. It's as sunny as singapore, but more windy. And when the night comes, the temperature falls super fast. HAHA, I STILL WEAR SHORTS SOMEMORE. COURTING DEATH. T.T

Okay, I shall end here. Got so much more things to blog about. Hai.

2011-12-29T00:31:00.008+08:00

Jingle bells all the way, bye Santa~

Wonder where's Santa now. Has he given everyone their presents? Is he on his way back home? ^^ I still believe in Santa. I mean, definitely not the old man with the white beard. Everyone has their own Santa, be it their parents or friends or themselves. I don't know. I just know Santa exists. Don't stop believing~

This is the mood necklace Yehlin gave to me as a belated present. It's really pretty and I have been wanting it since FOREVER. I remember a few days back I went to diva (they were having sales) and I almost bought a mood ring, if I had enough money..

So today, I woke up quite early to meet up with Radiance and Yehlin. We went to Yehlin's house to decorate so that there would be a slightly christmas feel to it. Hmm, not that much but whatever, there's a banner!!! Or whatever you call that. Before Andrea Reine and SiLing arrived, me Radiance Yehlin had a small gossip. Haha, I like having talks like that. Although I'll hate it very much if anyone talks about me like this behind my back. Haiyo. Words you don't get to hear.. >:( Anyway, I helped with writing all the letters okay! Pretty not?

I wasn't camwhoring okay. I tried to take with Andrea and Yehlin doing the banner thing. But Andrea ran away. T.T

Siling doing her sorry sorry movement.

We had a mini gift exchange and I got SiLing's gift, which was the 3D specs thing. Okay I kinda feel very guilty after that cause I think that my gift for Radiance wasn't that nice. It wasn't even nice, in my opinion.. So I shall write a card for her on the results day!! (Since she wrote one card to me too) Need to make myself less guilty T.T Or else I can't live already. I'm like that.

So the initial plan was just a girls outing. But apparently, Yehlin planned for the guys to come and surprise us. Hmmm, alright. Too bad Kelly wasn't there. Kinda miss having her around cause I always feel that I agree with whatever she thinks. Like she understands how I feel unintentionally. Today she's busy, so she can't make it! Oh man :( We went to Lot One to eat afterthat and I had to go home early, as usual, because of my curfew. I hate my curfew. It's so early..

I wonder just a thought too much.

Ps; I was looking through the pictures and I .. not to be mean, but I saw Junwei tiptoeing in the last picture :b

2011-12-28T23:57:00.005+08:00

Dancers in Sentosa

It's rather late now so I shall just write a little and then start another post. LOL Blogging sure is tough, but I like it. Anyway, below are videos and pictures taken in Sentosa yesterday. It's kinda like a dance comm outing. But hmm, let's just say it's a dance friends outing. Hehe.

We were suppose to meet at 10 at JE, but all of us were late (except Joey who thought she was late so she went Outram LOL). Then we went to Vivo to meet up with Lynn. Had superdog!!! It was my first time eating it and well, I can say it's nice but I don't think I'll eat there often cause it's not that affordable. Considering that I'm quite broke right now. Some of the earlier pictures are with Yehlin cause she was the only one who brought camera that day. But it's battery died as soon as we reached Sentosa..

So we walked to Sentosa and placed our bags below the lifeguard post. We went to play in the waters afterthat but Joey couldn't cause she forgotten to bring her extra clothes. It kept raining on and off like a switch, bitchy weather.. But we carried on playing cause we were wet anyway. Made friends with the lifeguard over there who was rather friendly.

Wilson, the ball ball that Jon lend to us float away once, and this guy went to swim half the waters to retrieve for us. HAHA How nice!! I thought Wilson was gone forever~ He's my dear float for that day.

Anyway, we tried swimming across to the other island as well, and the sand there was super duper soft I swear. You can make really deep footprints in it without any pressure needed. We brought back the sand for Joey and Yehlin to see (yes we swim with one hand) and they pose with it as if they're shit, just because they look greenish-yellow in colour haha. Well, Chloe and I were diligent people as well because we kept digging into the sand. The hole in the picture you see above is the fruit of our labour man!!! It's really deep I swear. The lifeguard lend us a shovel to help with the digging. So it was faster but we took a few hours digging it.. Some people tried to destroy it and we shouted at them. HAHA Fierce right!!

I bet there are other things that happened too but I kinda forgot. The lifeguard allowed us to go up to the top area, don't know what's that thing called, for awhile hehehe. The view up there was spectacular and very scenic. But oh well, life of a lifeguard kinda sucks. Haha, it's only awesome when people like us appears. Ehem. Anyway, then few of us had a H2H talk as well, only awhile though. But it was great. I just didn't feel that enthu then.

I remember the game was to ask a question, then everyone must answer. Questions like "What's your ideal guy" etc etc. Then when the lifeguard came, we asked him to say a random question. Then he said "Why is Vivo so big?". All of us laugh like hell. Then he told us got people die in the water before. And got fish, tamed sharks etc in the waters we swam across just now. WTH, I freaked out man. It's so horrible to know. Lucky I had Wilson to help me swim across, or else I would have panic if I saw a sea creature.. :/ Haha, above is also a picture of Chloe lying above the water surface. She looks super scary can!!!! T.T Kinda freaked out when I was looking through my pictures when I got back home.

The rest of them played volleyball as well but I didn't want to cause I wasn't dress appropriately. I wore the wrong shoes as well. Didn't know what I was thinking, seriously. I woke up feeling so exhausted and I forgot to bring so many things with me. :( I miss the dance outing. It's really fun and heartwarming. Is there even such word? Oh well, I can't wait for the next dance outing!

We are planning to have a dog party or something close to that. Can't wait!!! HAHA, and I love that handstand picture of me although I have sand on my butt. ^^ Okay, enough bragging. Goodbye!

2011-12-27T22:10:00.001+08:00

Jurong West Swimming Complex

Went swimming with Reine and Weiwen yesterday. At first Reine couldn't come but we convinced her well enough. Haha! Before that, I met up with Huiting at Clementi Mall to pass her her present, and walk around with her just to spend time away~ Below are the pictures for the swimming :D

Weiwen met her boyfriend there. He's like 3 years old or something. Super cute I swear. He keeps smiling and waving to us, especially me hehehehe HAHAHAHAHA. Okay I'm crazy but he's super friendly! I like him! Too bad his elder brother was with him most of the time and he's super scary. As if he'd kill us anytime. :/

We tried teaching Reine how to swim as well but it failed! We made friends with this auntie at the top of the slide while talking about A Song To Remember. Reine was MoLiGuang, Weiwen was YuHong-jie and I was JiuMei. We kept saying things from the show and acted out their accents. Tried acting XuKun as well and other characters, it was hilarious!!! I bet everyone was staring at us. We kept screaming!!! We made friends with another small girl called Jaslyn(?). We played number games with her and heart attack, loser need to stand under the toppling pail of water, and get splashed. You know the pail that gets filled up slowly before tilting? Yeap! She's so cute but evil too! Kept splashing water at me and teamed up with Reine and Weiwen.. :( Am I so not lovable? *puppy eyes*

It wasn't raining when we're swimming but as soon as we got out of the toilet after changing, it rained. How lucky are we!!! Went to JP afterthat. I know the rabbit on top is super ugly. Even the passerbys say so. I feel so sad for the person inside. Maybe he's handsome! HAHAHA. Or ugly... Hmmm.. Wanted to eat pizzahut but it was expensive. You know, I have been spending all my money on food these days. I never buy anything other than food. :( I spend so much I had to withdraw money from the atm. WHAT IS THIS?!

But it's okay.. 能吃是福. You know, I have come to a point whereby I feel fat, but I don't really care anymore cause I like food so so much. I need to stop this bad habit of mine. I'm getting fatter, I'm serious. I hate it. Very much. I feel like cutting my fringe recently too. This is random but yeah.. What should I do with my hair? It's getting in the way and it's so irritating that I'm beginning to like tying up my hair. Hai!

I feel so ugly.

2011-12-25T19:17:00.008+08:00

It's a season to be jolly, lalalalala la la la la!

HOHOHOHO Merry Christmas! ^^ How are you, my lovelies? I'm spending my christmas stoning at home, doing nothing but blogging. It sucks right? I don't have the mood to celebrate now cause I'm really very tired. But I went out in the morning, to watch Lynn's performance at her church! It was great! <3 Exactly like last year, but better! I kinda miss it already.. The atmosphere there was really nice and cosy. Everyone was so friendly, especially Beryl and Samantha!

Samantha made this for everyone! So sweet of her right?! It's cheesecake and it's WOW. Delicious!!! Wanted to get another one.. Hehehehe :9

Our spaceshot ride!! aka the Lift.

Lynn Jiayi Paul Beryl Chloe Me Jingwen Samantha and Jonathan!

Beryl's card for me! Lynn has one for me too!! Awwww, so sweet! <3

Gave Chloe and Lynn their presents today! They loved it!!! Yay!!!! ^^

After everything ended, at around 4, I went Clementi Mall with Chloe to walk around. Haha, bought a random brown expensive looking dress for $10. Cannot try though, so I didn't know whether I could work it out. Hmmm I think.. it looks alright on me, but meh, not really my style. But like what I said on the post before this, I'm willing to try out different styles! So this is the start! :D

Too bad my family isn't Christian, so we don't really have a party or anything. Which makes my night rather boring. Cause it's just like any other ordinary day. Mundane. Tomorrow will be another lonely day again. :( But it's okay, Tuesday will be dance outing! Wednesday will be 4M girls day! Planning is good.

:D I shall go take a nap, I'm quite tired. Bye.

2011-12-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

MERRY XMAS PEOPLE!!!!! <3

I hope everyone out there is happy. Love ya! May Santa be with you.

Chloe's playing the piano for you this christmas~ Hehe. I hope everyone's happy tonight. If you're not, forget the unhappiness just for today. Give yourself a treat.

To everyone who reads this, I love you guys. Cause you read my blog! ^^

2011-12-24T20:32:00.002+08:00

Putting on an act everyday.

I love wearing clothes of different styles, experimenting them to see whether it fits me. Makes me feel like another person when I put on a different style. I feel as if I'm becoming someone "chic" when I wear chic clothes, etc. I like the feeling, do you? I wanna experiment on other styles, even though they might not suit me.

I got caught for a crime today. T.T Cause I don't know why I forgot to tap my card when I board the bus, first time okay!!! Then this SMRT person came on board to check whether every passenger tapped. This is such an unlucky day, cause she found out I didn't tap. And at that point, I still thought I tapped already. And she kept asking me weird questions like what bus am I taking? Then although I'm taking 180, she showed me this receipt which says 960. Being confused, I said 'er, 960?'. So embarrassing please cause I really thought I was taking 960 and she kept asking me again and again. Poor thing. But lucky I wasn't fined or anything because according to the person, I wasn't born in 1994. o.o Okay.

But whatever, I still reached Chloe's house at the end.

I feel so bored right now, trying to upload the videos I took today but it's taking pretty long so I think.. forget it. Haha. Can't wait for tomorrow!!!!!! ^^

2011-12-23T23:32:00.002+08:00

Being whoever I can be.

This shall be a picture post. Not wordy, I promise.

The name is soooo joke.

Couldn't find anything to do except take pictures of myself just now, at the party. My eyes look big cause my camera's resolution is super lousy. Haha. Anyway, I need to sleep now cause I'm meeting Chloe early in the morning tomorrow. Or today, whatever.

Goodnights. xoxo.

2011-12-23T20:32:00.001+08:00

Am suppose to be in a party right now but all of them are talking. I mean, all of them are adults so Im kinda neglected? But that's good cause this gives me time to blog. Hehe. Today's the first day i wear my contacts ever since i got my double eyelid done. Its pretty uncomfortable but by now, i kinda got used to it. Its still a bit bruised so it looks.. Meh.

Im typing via my phone right now so Im having a lot of grammar crimes. Bleh who cares? I went to bugis with yehlin just now and it was awesome. Caught up with a lot of stuffs, i love talking to her man. Its so AWESOME. Like really, i can tell her almost everything and laugh it off without feeling awkward.

Gonna meet Chloe tmr to finish my presents and probably. . Nah. I think i spent a lot of time with her. Haha not much to catch up :b

Anyway i had the worse bus ride just now from bugis back home. I waited for the bus for more than 20minutes and the bus ride took more than an hour. Lucky Amanda called me so i didn't had to suffer the journey alone. She's making cookies!!! Makes me wanna eat them. I have been eating a lot recently. Like a lot. Till Im bloated most of the time. Hai. Time to restrict myself again..

Okay i forgot to tell you guys i had this other nightmare while i dreamt of my teeth dropping out. I dreamt that my Olevel score was 15points. I swear i was devastated. Eh wait, did i say that before? I am not sure but yeah.. I cried having the dream.. :( i really don't want my results to be so disappointing. I want a single digit at least. I will be happy. Really happy. Maybe not satisfied but yeah..

I think i should stop typing and be more.. Sociable. Hehe. Kay, bye <3.

2011-12-23T02:10:00.005+08:00

Thanks for acting like you care. All the memories so close to me just fade away. You were everything that I wanted. All these time you were pretending, so much for my happy ending.

It's time to sleep. I need to. But I just woke up several hours ago, it's almost impossible to get back to sleep. So I'm here, blogging again. Don't really know what to say but I feel quite empty these days. As if my life no longer has meaning. But that ain't true. I just feel.. I don't even know how to start expressing myself on this random blog post.

I really wish I had the ability to know what someone thinks/feels about me. I'm really curious. I don't know how true they are to me, how true our relationship is. At times, I see no point in being with whoever I'm with. But then, I'm held back by the length of our relationship. I see meaning in it, I see love. But like I said, it's not all the time. I'm just ordinary, I feel lost too. I'm not perfect, I see faults in my relationship with people too.

I hate it very much, but I too, feel like I don't belong with certain people. I know I might not be right about my feeling, but I just don't like having the feeling, you know? Okay, this post is so confusing I don't even get what I'm trying to say. But whatever, I'm still gonna type. I need to type. I need to express how I feel to whoever understands.

I think I'm losing it. Losing all my ability to stay close to everyone. I can't stand being alone. I need to surround myself with friends all the time. Or else I feel neglected. That's it. I hate being alone. But when I'm with my friends, it doesn't necessary mean I won't feel neglected. Well, how do I say it? Sometimes I still feel empty even with my friends. I'm happy with them, being CRAZY with them, but.. AHHHH. Who would understand man?

Maybe it's just one of my mood swings. Haha. Or maybe, I no longer understand what I'm suppose to feel. I no longer trust my feelings anymore. I guess that's the conclusion of this post. I think I get it. I feel how I feel. I know what I feel.

This is brilliant.

2011-12-22T22:40:00.007+08:00

It's been a while.

Just a few days ago, I had this very weird dream. It was a nightmare but I don't remember much about it. However, I do remember this small part of the dream whereby i was looking at myself in the mirror, and my teeth started crumbling and falling apart. So i tried to adjust it back but it kept dropping out of my mouth. I was so horrified, I tried poking my teeth back into my gums. I know it sounds disgusting but that was my dream. So i kinda googled on the interpretation of my dream.

"One theory is that dreams about your teeth reflect your anxieties about your appearance and how others perceive you. Your teeth help to convey an image of attractiveness and play an important role in the game of flirtation, whether it is flashing those pearly white, kissing or necking. Thus, such dreams may stem from a fear of rejection, sexual impotence or the consequences of getting old. To support this notion, a dream research found that women in menopause report to have frequent dreams about teeth. This points to teeth dreams as being related to getting older and/or feeling unattractive and less feminine. Teeth are an important feature to your attractiveness and how you are presented to others. Caring about how you look is natural and healthy."

It is so true man. I cannot don't believe it. I've been really conscious of my looks recently, a bit too much that dreams like this have been appearing. Really distracting. I do have dreams like this, quite a bit actually, in the past. Of teeth dropping out. HAHAHAH, I didn't know it meant this.. But anyway, aside from the dream I had, I went out with JingHui HuiTing Reine today. Finally, out of the house. I haven't been going out everyday, which sucks. Cause it means I have to spend the whole day staying at home doing nothing but sleep.

At times, I will read a book. Currently reading After You'd Gone, but I have been neglecting it for awhile. Then other times, I will be watching dramas. I camped infront of my computer until 2am today, just to finish watching He's Beautiful. I'm gonna start on Secret Garden soon, just cause everyone says it's nice. Then maybe Lie To Me, or the My Girlfriend is a Gumiho. Oh, and My Princess!!! ^^ So many shows my friends recommended me.

Apparently, today's the riceball festival, and usually my family will celebrate it by cooking riceballs. But this year, we didn't. The festival means Tuan Yuan, which is reunion in English I guess? My translation sucks I know. Family togetherness. I really wanna eat them, not cause of the meaning behind it, but cause I WANNA EAT MRBEAN 3-in-1 RICEBALLS!!! I shall buy them tomorrow hehehehe.

Oh yeah, about the outing today, we went to bowl! I got two strikes consecutively okay!! I'm not much of a bowling person, but I managed quite well this time. Am proud of myself, tell me you're proud of me? :D Tomorrow I'm going out with Yehlin!! She's finally back from Europe. Can't wait to see her and catch up with whatever I don't know about her!! Hehe.

Yesterday's Lynn's birthday, but she's overseas, so I didn't bother wishing her or whatever, that will make it so pointless. Can't wait to give her her birthday present, although it's not done yet. I'm excited to meet her on Sunday!! Celebrating Xmas at her church, like last year. Time really flies, don't it? Last year seems like yesterday, I'm serious.

It was the first time I met Lynn's church friends, and it was a very pleasant meeting. I like them all!!! :D It's a pity we didn't see each other that often after that. Only a few times here and there. Can't wait for Sunday!

After meeting Yehlin tomorrow, I'll be having a christmas party at my mum's friend's place. Have been going there for years. It's nothing much cause all I do is emo at one corner (probably using the computer there) and eat the food provided. No friends, yes. Hehe. Something different this year is that I'm celebrating Xmas with 4M girls! Okay, not christmas because we're having it after christmas. They wanna come to my house, but I have no christmas tree.. So how!!! Like no christmas spirit eh? :( We're having a christmas present exchange so I'm excited too!!!! ^^

I got so many plans from tomorrow onwards! :D Going Hainan on the 30th already. At least a cold climate for me to spend the new year. I haven't been to any cold countries for awhile due to my major exam. Sucky, right? But it's okay, I'm going already so no complaints!! I remember last year's newyear/xmas period was a depressing one for me. Hoping that this year's will be different!! I was thinking of seeing you once this holiday, but I guess it'll only be awkward and more awkwardness. Shall erase that thought of mine!!

This is going to be SOOOOOO random, especially to end off this post. But I think Lee Hong Ki is cute. I've never been that much of a korean fan. I like Nichkhun, and Lee Hong Ki had the same blonde hair Nichkhun had!!!!!!!! He's only 5 years older than me!!!! <3

Well, being a fangirl once in a while isn't that sinful right? Love ya guys as well.

2011-12-16T23:04:00.002+08:00

Day 16: Someone that doesn’t live in your state/country.

I just finished making presents for people!! Xmas is coming but I'm not really prepared. I'm low in cash right now. I got my EAGLES award a few days ago, but I heard a lot of people are getting it. So I don't really feel special or anything. Feels.. ordinary. Moreover, my friends are getting more than one award, jealousy kills. So I don't really have anything much to do right now, except start on my Day 16!! Someone that doesn't live in my country. First person that comes to my mind, my cousin.

Well, let's just say, she's not really my cousin. She's just another distant relative of mine, who lives in Melbourne, Australia. She's my father's cousin's daughter. So that makes her KINDA like my cousin? Her name's Jasmine :) And I think she's really pretty. I was looking through the picture album when I was doing my Day 1~3. Saw quite a few pictures of her when she came over to SG, when she was much younger. Too bad now we don't really get to meet that often. Infact, I only saw her once or twice? :/ My first impression of her is rather good, cause I thought that she was cool. Well, everything was cool to me when I was in primary school. I wanted to be someone like her. Every once in a while, I'll look into her life (via FB), and get really interested in it cause it looks really fun and all. I guess life in Singapore.. there's no much to do yeah? We go here and there so often, it bores the hell outta me. There's nothing new or fun in SG. All the old, boring places. East Coast Park, Sentosa, Bugis, Orchard, Jp.. Seriously, ain't you sick?

And I'm also very envious of her cause she looks.. different. Might be all the make up etc, but I like how she portrays herself, confident and lovely. Ahhh, sometimes how I wish I can grow up. But I don't, most of the time. I'm old enough. I wanna stay at 17 or 18. I don't wanna touch on 19, ever. I wanna be young. I wanna be lively, I wanna be happy.

2011-12-15T20:41:00.002+08:00

Everything is just a lie.

No matter how many times I tell people I'm not that rich, they refuse to believe me. Do I look like a taitai or anything? ^^ I really do hope I'm rich though, at least fortunate enough to not have to think about money all the time. I kept thinking of my "financial troubles" today. I think I do that quite often, and I'll always become very miserable after realising how little money I have. I even made a whole list of things I need/want to get, which gets me more frustrated that I am right now. I have to pay for my phone's cracked screen, which is already $100. And I still wanna pick up ukulele lessons, which I have no idea whether my parents will pay for it.

And then there are other stuffs that I have to get as well.. It's just making me crazy you know? I don't even feel like going out cause it will only mean spending money. :( I got a way out though, which is to do household chores to earn money, but I'm lazy like that. We'll see about that. If only my dad was here in SG, maybe he'll help me solve some of my problems. Bleh.

I am in the depressed state of my life right now. Every now and then I'll feel insecure, imperfect and.. I don't feel good enough about myself. I am right now. I think I'm just wasting my holidays away you know? I don't even know what I'm typing you know? I JUST FEEL SO IRRITATED BUT IT'S SO HARD TO SHOW. It's so hard to get rid of this feeling.

So why am I even irritated in the first place? I don't even know. This sucks. I cannot be like this forever. I think I need a day out. Like soon. VERY SOON. :'( OR ELSE I MIGHT DIE OF MY OWN ANNOYANCE.

2011-12-13T13:35:00.033+08:00

Who says you need to be pretty to take pictures?
Pretty is boring, just be yourself. It's enough to make the picture perfect.

I accidentally twisted the timeline of the pictures. Meaning the earlier pictures taken are at the bottom of the post. Hehe. So troublesome ah. The pictures are taken by Weiwen's DSLR!! Most of the pictures can be found in her FB. Go take a look okay!! The pictures below are only there cause there's me. HEHEHE. I know.. :D

I have no idea what I'm doing. Just doing something random. T.T But my wrist looks skinny yeah!

I wanna be a doraemon. You know the one which winks and stick out his tongue at the same time? I think I fail so badly, I look so... :/

We were being bored at Haagen Daz so after we ate our ice cream, we took a lot of weird pictures. This is the act sleeping one.

And this is the act "don't know there's a camera" one.

WEIWEN SO PRO LOR. Look like she's shooting for a MV.

Reine's buaysong face also not bad hor?

Looks really nice right?! It's so appetizing and awesome. I want eat again :(

Reine feeling so much better after seeing Haagen Daz. Cause it means REST for our tired legs and minds. I felt so.. exhausted after the walk in the Botanic Gardens.

We wanted to take pictures here but apparently, there's a wedding shoot held there. Sigh!! Wedding shoot at Botanic Gardens, seriously?! When I get married (hopefully), I wanna take my pictures at Maldives. :)

THIS IS TOO TALL FOR ME TO REACH.

Looking very awkward cause I couldn't balance properly :b

HAHAH I'M IN A VERY VERY HILARIOUS POSITION. This cracks me up.

How do I look? I feel like I'm shooting for the Kampong Ties. HAHAHA. I wanna be free~~

I like this picture a lot cause of my hair. HAHAHAHA. I can go advertise for Shampoo already!! And I look skinny in it wheeee~

I think this plant looks like banana.

Powerpuff girls~!

Picnic!! HAHA. We had this mini picnic once we reached Botanic Gardens. But so little variety of food~ I feel like eating cheese prata right now hahahaha. And I smell something nice from my kitchen right now. My mum's cooking early dinner! AND IT SMELLS SPICY, I LIKE.

Okay so about Botanic Gardens, we were suppose to meet at JE at 1130. But we indirectly told Reine 11, cause we were afraid that she'll be late again, as usual. BUT NO, SHE WAS EARLY, OMG, WE UNDERESTIMATED HER. T.T While I was still at home, she texted me "Where are you?", I freaked out. I'll never do this again man. I was rushing like hell. So we ended up meeting at around 12. Hehe. Trained to Botanic Gardens and walked from BukitTimah till near Orchard Road at the end of the day. Wow, from one gate to another okay! Don't play play.

It was not a pleasurable walk AT ALL. So tiring to walk up the hills and all, but it's okay, good exercise yes? We went into the Orchid Garden and I swear the Cool House was the best place to be in. It's soooo cooling and nice, a great escape from the humid weather outside. I didn't wanna leave. But before that, we asked this couple to help us take a picture at a "Photo Spot", and I don't know what happen but Reine and HuiTing started to laugh. Embarrassing okay!! Turns out it's because the guy who kindly helped us take a picture said "YU BEI... YI~ ER~ SAN!", sounded as if we're going for a race. Haiyo, I felt so sorry for the guy.

Anyway, we also met this other guy that we kept seeing (wonder if it's fate). And he kept taking pictures of flower like Weiwen. HEHE. We called him weiwen's other half. :b There's so many eurasians in Botanic Gardens too!! I saw a few hunks there wheeeee~ Okay, pretty ladies too. I'm jealous. Why are they so good-looking? :(

So after all that, we were really tired and moodless already. Didn't wanna explore more, so we went out of Botanic Gardens. Bused to Holland V and the first thing we saw - Haagen Dazs. Our lifesaver you know! I think Reine was rather tired cause she was really quiet after we came out of the Orchid Garden. But HaagenDazs made us all feel better!!! ^^ I swear the ice cream is expensive. But I love their sorbets a lot. I never like chocolate ice cream. I prefer fruity flavours. I think they're more refreshing, no?

Surprisingly, when we were on our way back home, we met Miss Chia and her netball student at the MRT!! ^^ Haha that was super random. But anyway, I guess that's all. I feel quite bad for Weiwen. She had to upload all 400 plus plus pictures up on Facebook even though there's a problem with her Facebook uploader. I want a trip like that soon. I want to get a DSLR too. Hopefully my parents get that for me for Xmas, but nah, it's too expensive. It's impossible. I need to save up on my own. Hehe. And stop being so spoilt.

I need to go now. There's so many pictures for your pleasure sake. I look lovely, don't I? HAHAHA. I need to go learn more epic poses. They're all so... meh. Boring!

2011-12-12T22:56:00.003+08:00

I don't know love.

What is love? Parents thinking of you even though they're overseas, remembering to get you things? Or friends that sacrifice their time to spend the day with you, even though they're tired? I have no idea how to love. Don't know how to show my appreciation to those I love. To me, as long as I'm happy, I feel loved. HAHAHA, too easy to please. I think I don't know love at all, cause if I were to love, there will be too many people I'd wanna love. That gives love no meaning at all, yeah? What do you think? Is there a right way to love? Is there a criteria to be loved?

I think I get touched very easily. Be it people visiting me in weird hours of the day because I'm sick, or friends and family noticing things that I want/like. I think it's the little things that make me feel so blessed to have all of them in my life. Of course, being materialistic as I am, I don't mind people who go the extra mile to make me touched, meaning they do OBVIOUS and BOOMZ stuffs to make me happy. I'll still be happy, just in another way I guess?
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Hui Ting is super lag, this is my birthday present from her. Half a year lag!!! But it's okay, there are still people out there who's even more lag. Hehehe. VERY CUTE RIGHT!!!! I'm hugging it right now cause it's super soft. I LIKE!!!! <3

She got a mask for me too cause I wrote it on my blog. Hehe, see!! This is what I call little things that make me feel so touched :) Like I'm being noticed heheheheh.

Some food that Weiwen gave us all. From what I know, 3Q in taiwan means Thank You? San-q~ Okay, I think it's suppose to sound alike? HAHA OH REINE MADE A JOKE OUT OF IT. She say eat this, later become Tony Tan?! LOL WTH??? Cause if you do a direct translation, it means President Biscuit. Then Weiwen say since it's made in Taiwan, should become Ma Ying Jiu. -.- Why do I have this kinda friends? HAHAHAHAHA.

Look at my horrible nails. It cracked so I had to clip it off in case it crack deeper down. :( Painful ah. Now my nails look squarish, so ugly. Tsk.

Okay, I'm actually waiting for Weiwen to upload her pictures of today's outing on Facebook. We took a total of 400 plus plus pictures. Omg right! I never take so much in a day before!!! O_O We took a lot of retarded pictures while eating ice cream in HaagenDaz. Haiyo, fun sia.

OH YEAH, you guys might not care, but the drama I was catching ended last night!!! So I don't really have anything to watch now. The ending is soooo sweet I tell you. Even though it's a taiwan drama, they came to SG to shoot, and worked with some of the actor and actresses in SG. I love the show a lot!!! It's so sad that it ended. It's as if I've been through everything with them!!! :'(

Okay, I have nothing left to say. Shall leave it all for the upcoming post about Botanic Gardens. Hehe. Love ya.

2011-12-10T23:11:00.002+08:00

Need no loving from nobody.

Spent the wee hours of the morning talking to Jonathan and Junwei on MSN. About food. Make me went to sleep feeling really hungry T.T And we talked a lot of crap. Like how pig + duck = puck = dota monster. Wtf. And about the old benedict's blog. Wow, all the memories. Really nice to talk to friends like that every now and then. Makes me feel so 温馨. So we talked from 12 to 2 plus I think? I'm not very sure, but all I know is that I was left with 4 hours to sleep, because I have work in the morning with Sharlene (my cousin-in-law!). She's really nice and got me a volunteer job in her childcare centre (one day job). I'm suppose to help the kids with their make up for their graduation performance. And just make sure they behave themselves! I think I did a better job as compared to the other time at DES. Less awkward with the kids. Hehe.

Spot the guy with the mohawk hair that I styled. LOL. Okay, another volunteer helped style it too. ^^ They styled it according to their teacher's hairstyle. HAHAHAH JOKE.

This is the guy, Masaki!!! He's really handsome in real life!! He's a japanese!! And he's really nice to me okay! I mean, he's much more friendlier compared to other kids that stare at me when I do their make up. I'm actually quite afraid of doing eye make up for them cause some of them has sensitive eyes. Then they'll always look like they're going to cry. Makes my heart flutter. There was this other guy that's pretty scary-cute. When I was slacking at a corner (cause nothing left to do), he walked to me and lean on me. I ask him what's wrong, then he just stare and he doesn't budge. Creepy. So I walked away (cause they were going to take group picture, don't wanna be extra), not cause I am mean!

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It was held in Chevrons anyway, near IMM. So I met up with Reine at IMM later on for lunch. Wanted to eat Pepperlunch, but it was expensive (no student meal), so we ended up in Mos Burger. Saw HuiTing and her mum in IMM too!!! Really funny, cause we creeped up to them (at the ATM) and said "What's your PIN number?". They got a shock!!! Hahaha super cute. After everything, we met Kelly at JE Interchange and went down to Clementi to meet the rest (Radiance Andrea DiGene YiYong Lester JunWei Chime and his friend). We walked to the board games cafe, but we didn't really had any fun there. I guess it's because the group was too big, so there weren't any games that we could play together. It feels very.. hmm.. distant? Not good an idea. But Si Ling came along afterwards and we celebrated her birthday!! I guess she was quite shock? I think she was more shock when the guy's friend gave her a present (that the guys got for her though). Still super weird.

The clarity of the pictures above (group shots) shows how bad the friend is, at taking photographs. Haha, but nevermind, at least the picture is taken. ^^b Good enough.

I like this picture cause my eyes look big in it. Hehehehe. But I think there's a problem with my eyelids. Not really satisfied with it. So maybe I should go back for a checkup if my mum allows. Looking pretty weird, but acceptable lah. Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SILING. You know I love you <3 I mean it, I love today too!!!! ^^ One of the happier birthday celebration I've been to.

After the Board Games Cafe, we went to some random arcade near Clementi Mall. Wasn't fun at all but we stayed there for quite awhile. :/ Boring. So we kinda decided to go to Lot One instead, while the guys left for their own programmes ah. Wanted to catch a movie but there were only 5 movies showing in Lot One, none that we're interested in. Thus, we went to play in the arcade, top up $50 which was gone in an hour or so. Really fun :D It was like some mini party or something!! (More fun than Board Games Cafe hehehehe :b)

Went to the Food Court to eat afterwards. I ate Pepperlunch!!! Satisfied my craving. But my sore throat got worse after the meal. :/ It's back to normal now though. Was supposed to reach home at 9 (my mum called me to remind me of my curfew cause she's overseas), but we had this long H2H talk after dinner. And I forgot about the time. The H2H talk lasted an hour to two. We are crazy people. But it gave me a really fluffy fuzzy warm feeling. Like it a lot. We recalled the times we had throughout these 4 years, exchange our secrets and gave our opinions on many things. I think it makes me miss them even more. Makes me miss 4M'11. It's been so long since I felt so loved by my friends. They know me so well, it's kinda creepy you know? We kept teasing each other about our own unique characteristics and how we would react if _________. Funny, touching conversation.

I was thinking if one day I ever become a director like Jiu Ba Dao, I'll make a movie about my teenage life. Talk about the girlfriends I have and.. CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP WHILE WATCHING IT ON REPLAY.

So before we all went back home, we saw a crowd gathering at the MRT station. Realise it was the Lunar Eclipse or something. Really pretty and makes it an even more memorable day. I love it really much, today.. I want a day like this again. Wonder whether we'll have it again. We wanted to meet up every year on the same exact day. Cool or what?! Like a compulsory meet up day.

Oh yea, we all made our own wish to the Moon and bid farewell. Fantastic. I don't know whether anyone feels the same as me. But I feel exceptionally happy today. Big H2H group talk today. Love it when everyone discuss about EVERYTHING UNDER THE SUN. It's as if I have a mini family. Cuteness overload.

Oh yeah, I reached home at 10 plus. And my parents kept calling me. Didn't wanna pick up cause I know they'll be nagging at me and I hate it very much. So I missed call them 10 over times. But I don't know why I suddenly realise how worried they'd be if they can't get through. I didn't want them to worry so I rather they scold me or whatever. I picked up and lied to them that I was reaching home, when I only just board the bus. But better than making them worry right! My mum didn't scold me at all please. She just told me how worried she was, that she didn't dare to sleep. :'( So friggin' guilty eh. I feel so disobedient and rebellious. (Although I detest my early curfew). Hai, I love my parents. That's what I wanna say. :D

OH OH AND IF YOU REALISE WHY I KEEP HAVING SO FEW PICTURES THESE DAYS, it's because I keep forgetting to insert my memory card back into the camera. So I can only use my camera's memory space (around 20 pictures). Which sucks. :( Tell me, who brings the camera but forgets the memory card? Me lor.

T.T (Sorry I can't help but add a 'lor' at the end. It's so me.) Bye lovelies. Got hunks? Imma stalk Andrea's friend. LOOK LIKE KO ZHEN DONG!! OMG. I'm in love.

"Every now and then, I'll still think of you. Less often, but it's still there." Stole a line from my own twitter LOL. Retarded.

2011-12-08T19:34:00.005+08:00

Around Singapore in 8 hours.
(11am - 7pm)

Chloe and I travelled to a lot of places today. Hehehe okay not a lot but REALLY QUITE A FEW LAH. We met at JE interchange. The plan was to go Marina Barrage for picnic/fly kite. But then I was sick, so my mum didn't encourage me to go outdoors, and we didn't prepare food as well. SO I DECIDED THAT WE GO CHANGI AIRPORT. Yup! We took the train there. Super fun. But the airport itself wasn't that fun.

Okay, it was pretty and cooling.. AND REALLY HIGH CLASS. But the things there were very expensive, there were few shops and it's just not a place for me. It was not very crowded.. I don't like quiet places. Neither do I like crowded areas uh.

Yeah, I ate laksa though my throat was itching. Now I totally lost my voice. I really regret. :( Should have take good care of my throat. How am I suppose to volunteer on Sat with my current condition?! FASTER HEAL. I LOVE YOU, THROAT. <3

Crazy Chloe wanted to play in this. Lucky the entrance fee was too expensive for her, so I escaped this evil plan of hers. T.T I'm too old for this. It's embarrassing yo.

We bused to Suntec City after that. Which was quite boring. So we took the train to Bugis, and walked to Haji Lane. Spend most of our day there shopping. But the things were very expensive (not that I don't know). I like window-shopping though cause I can't bear to part with my money. Hehe $_$. Moneyfaced. I'm trying to find a bag that I like though. Waiting till I go overseas. Might be cheaper over there.

Oh and speaking of shopping, I need to get more facial masks for myself. My skin condition is terrible right now. The sight of myself in the mirror scares me. T.T

COOL FACE OR WHAT?! We were pretending that we were sitting on a roller coaster cause the bus in Changi Airport was EMPTY. And it kept going through tunnels, making it feel like a roller coaster ride. ^^b

Went to Bugis Junction afterthat cause I needed a drink to soothe my throat. It died. :'( Hai, I miss my melodious voice man!!!! :( :(

Trying to wink and Chloe failed damn badly. I shan't upload the other picture of her failing. HEHEHE Although I look quite awesome in that picture :(

Okay, I shall get more barley water for myself now. See ya soon!!! ^^

2011-12-06T20:05:00.003+08:00

Day 15: The person you miss the most.

A few days ago I was taking the bus to Bugis to meet Chloe. So while I was on the way there, passing by the LRT stations in my neighbourhood, I saw someone really familiar on the road. I don't know whether she's my friend or not. But I guess so. She used to be my neighbour and we were really close friends for two years plus. However, as soon as she got into secondary school, we didn't meet as often and our relationship was getting really awkward. I no longer dare to call her to go out to play or go to her house to play barbie dolls.

I think it was last year, when she moved house, without telling me. (Because we're practically like strangers already) Hai, I kinda miss her though. I did see her a few times this year on the LRT etc, but I didn't dare to say hi or smile at her. She's two years older than me and probably in a poly right now. She.. looks pretty unfriendly, so I didn't dare go up to her to say hello. But I really miss her a lot. I spend my childhood with her, cause I didn't had a life. I'd go home after school most of the time, and the only after school friend I had was her. Yes, it's kinda pathetic, but that was my life. My classmates will be playing block catching etc after school, but I will be on my way home. Wow. Sad life yo.

I remember I started to know her through my brother. My brother was friend with hers. So my mum encouraged me to talk to her cause you know.. guys will play games that weren't suitable for us girls. Always. They won't welcome us in their 'manly' games and think that we're weaklings (yea, we probably were). Thus, we became friends pretty soon. I also remember how she used to sing songs to me (she was in choir). Oh and did I mention, she was my primary school senior! Hehe. Ahhh, all the memories. I really have a lot of memories, do I? Hehe. I miss her a lot. I miss having a close friend that lives near me so I can go her house everyday without being afraid that I'll reach home late. I miss you, NC.

2011-12-06T19:46:00.002+08:00

Board games cafe!

Pardon me for the lack of pictures. I'm too shy to take out my camera to do random snaps. It's really awkward hahahahaha. I'm no longer the girl I used to be in lower sec. Taking out my camera 24/7 to snap pictures. Anyway! I went out with Reine Radiance DiGene YiYong Lester today!!!! We went to this board games cafe near Clementi mall. It's really fun! But they all bully me. Sabo me to make me lose. Even the assistant felt sorry for me. Hai! But whatever, it was a really nice experience! I can't believe the assistant's only 14. All the while I thought she was older, so I seeked comfort in her. Damn it, she's younger.. That's quite embarrassing. Hahaha.

Oh yeah, so as you know I'm having a diet currently. And I ate a lot of junk food yesterday till I felt really bad for myself. So I told myself not to eat any junk food today but ugh!!! Stupid. There was this 3rd hour special thing in the cafe, which was this brownie. T.T I used up all my power to resist the temptation to buy. And yes, I didn't buy. BUT THEN THE GUYS BOUGHT. And DiGene tempted me. Idiot, he knew I was on a diet!!! I hate him. So yes, I ate. -.- Even though I'm having a sore throat right now. I think I have an allergy towards bubble tea. I never fail to have sore throat after drinking them. Especially milk tea w/pearls. Hmmm.

Uhm, so there was the Kbox part after dinner. With Yehlin Jeidy SiLing Chime Lester DiGene. But I couldn't go. Firstly cause of my throat, and secondly cause of my mum. She wouldn't allow me to go that far in the night. :/ I'm so miserable. Why do I have so much restrictions? Bleh.

My throat's hurting really badly now. I'm afraid I can't speak tomorrow. :( Anyone free on Friday? Okay, that's random but I wanna go out!!! >:) All my friends are going overseas already.

2011-12-06T01:33:00.005+08:00

I keep telling myself, that I'm cheated. Cheated by my own feelings. Feeling rather lonely tonight, especially after the many inspiring movies that I watched. It's always during this few lonely hours, that I realise so much about my life. It might be the emo-period of mine. I wonder what are my friends doing now. Sleeping? If so, where could they be? What would they be dreaming about? Would I be in their dream? Will anyone be thinking of me before they sleep? So many questions. But I really just wanna know, whether I'm on anyone's mind. Am I important enough?

I'm feeling so cheated by my feelings, I really can't trust them anymore. Now, everytime I think of you, I'll tell myself it's all fake. I am just being childish, I don't know anything about this game. Well, maybe I'm right. I might be on the right track now, I should get rid of all these thoughts. Moreover, you don't even care..
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Okay enough talk for tonight. Just so you know, I'm volunteering at my cousin-in-law's workplace!! There are kids there so wheeeeeeeeeeeee~ I'm happy :D I'm shy, but I'll get used to it I hope!!! Reminds me of the times I helped out the little kids in my dance school. Hehe memorable..

Oh and I saw this friend of mine today. I wonder whether she recognised me. I kept looking at her. And she looked back. It was rather awkward but I was waiting for a sign of recognition. Like a smile, or a wave. But none came. Pretty disappointed, it felt as if we've became strangers. Wow. I guess time changes people. It's the only thing that changes people. Few drops of time, is sufficient to erase people's memories.

How upsetting. Haha, time = 梦婆汤. I'm weird. Kay bye.

2011-12-05T20:56:00.008+08:00

Day 14: Someone you have drifted away from.

I used to have this best friend whom I never did regret having. I have no idea how I got to be so close to her, because before the 'best friend' thing, we had a lot of misunderstandings and were kinda like enemies. Furthermore, no one really likes her. So who knew I'd be best friends with her!! Still remember all the silly things we did and say, all the dreams we had together and all the gossips we shared. Secrets we had.. It's a pity that all these are gone. To be honest, I don't really remember why we became so.. distant.
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To: KKS.

All I knew was that I decided not to speak to you (even though my mum tried persuading me to). Yes, I know you told my mum everything I did to you, and tried getting her help to make us friends again. But I guess I was really mad at whatever you did that time. Nonetheless, I still think that you're a very awesome friend. When others failed to notice my sadness and are unable to cheer me up, you'll be the one that comes forward to speak to me. You're unlike my other friends. Guess no one will really get you. Seems like even now, no one really appreciates you. I don't know why though? :/

Ahhh whatever. All I wanna say is I don't hate you. You're a very special friend I had. You made me feel important, when I felt neglected by all my close friends. You made me feel like I'm a first choice, when people treated me as an option. Although you might be what they think as bossy or arrogant, I think that's cool, cause I don't have to be the one making the decisions. I feel.. comfortable with you. Cause you'll always have something to talk about, like a chatterbox. I don't have to be the one creating topics etc.

I miss us. I hate how our friendship has drifted. But it's all fate right? I believe in fate :D I guess we'll both find better friends. At least you seem happy now.

xoxo,
kayymie (yes, the name we made together)

2011-12-04T13:53:00.009+08:00

My mistake, for believing that you're different.

How does my eyes look? It still looks pretty swollen cause of the bruises underneath my eyes.

Anyway, had my first class outing yesterday! Or is it just a clique outing? Cause a lot of people didn't attend :'( Not fun de. But it's okay!!! We had 14 people attending I think. Which is good enough!! :D Me Reine Siling Yehlin Andrea Jeidy Rebecca (and Radiance who joined later on) Yiyong Chime Junwei Lester Zhenhao Junsheng Surya Shafiq. Okay that's 16 people. Heheh. QUITE A LOT LEH!!!!!!!! <3

When we reached, it was blazing hot. And we were all perspiring like hell. So we sat down to have our lunch!! They ordered drinks but I have no idea why I didn't. LOL either no money or just don't feel like drinking. Confirm one. I know myself very well HAHAHA. But I ordered Fried Kway Teow which was kinda too watery for me. Didn't like it very well. We girls kept talking about the hygiene of the stalls (by their certificates) and gossiped a lot. Hehehe, omg it was so.. shocking. All the things that we said and discussed.

Surya left right after lunch, (SO FAST) so we went to rent bicycles!! Haven't cycled for quite awhile, a few years? But I got the hang of it quickly and woahhhh I LOVE CYCLING NOW. Anyone wants to cycle with me? :D But the weather was shit, it rained after we rent the bikes. Like half an hour later. Woah. So we seek shelter and stuff, ride in the rain etc.

(Zhenhao shaking his shaker fries happily hahahahah)

So apparently we were suppose to seek shelter at one Mac, but there was two Macs, so we got separated. Super dumb. Jeidy and Andrea went to find the guys and get them to come down to the Mac that I was at. IN THE HEAVY RAIN I TELL YOU. So scary please! But I think quite fun eh, wearing ponchos, cycling in the heavy rain~ Romantic can! :b

So while they went to get the people, me yehlin zhenhao shafiq had quality time together! HAHA comfortably sitting in an air-conditioned room. Shiok please! We played Shoot Shag Marry. Hilarious! All the choices were either TOO GOOD, or TOO BAD. LOL!!!!!! I can't believe some of the choices that they want to shag. O_O

We also played Truth or Dare. And we dared Yehlin to go infront of the couple to wave at us. :D Cool or what! HAHAHAHAH. It'd be better if the bicycle man wasn't there. Hai.

Erm, which couple more attention-seeking ah?

Tell me you see something wrong with this picture.. HAHAHA. Cannot? Then look at the picture below.. :b Andrea and I kept laughing like siao. Behind one couple, infront one couple. Damn it, a bit not happy ah?

Oh and Yehlin bought ths $1 bubble blowing kit. Which looks like a phone. And she kept blowing and blowing and blowing like a little kid. LOL!!!!!!!!! I have a lot of them at home. o_o But now, I'm a bit too old for them. Think that they make me very sticky and soapy.

I think my eyes look like O_O this now. LOL. If you notice, the bruises at the side highlights my eyes. Just like how eyeliner does. :/ Don't like it. HAHAHA. Hopefully it'll be gone soon! And right, I think I need to slim down my face. There's too much baby fats. Any ideas how? I'm really not happy with it. It's horrible.

Wow my complexion looks not bad here but meh, it's really terrible in real life. HAI!!! NEED MORE MASK ON MY DRESSING TABLE!

We went to Clementi Mall to eat dinner afterthat. I ate Laksa!!! Fattening or not? But I love it, it's really nice and Laksa's one of my favourite noodles :D It's awesome like WOAH. I like spicy stuffs. Hehehe.

So yup! The day ended like that. While I was on my way home, the rest went to have supper. Sushi!!!! Omg, I also want eh. :( But I don't feel hungry now. So I shouldn't eat!!! Must have a good eating habit. Eat only when you're hungry!!! You know I realise.. guys don't like skinny girls. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. Then they like fat girls meh?! Tsk. Nevermind, I like being slim. So whatever :D I live for myself ^^b

I can't wait to be hungry, so I can eat. HAHAHAHA. I love reading thinspo. Been neglecting it for the past few weeks, no wonder my weight has been constant all these while.

2011-12-02T18:43:00.003+08:00

My life, currently..

is in a big mess. So will you clean it up, with me?
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Tomorrow's the class outing! I can't wait for it. Like totally!!!!!!!!!! I don't think we have that big a class outing before. It was always a clique outing etc. Although only around 15 people attending, I think it's quite a big group already!!! I'm happy :D And we're having a picnic, most probably, if it doesn't rain!!! I think picnics are romantic! So I guess I'd be able to fulfil my wish of doing something romantic this December! Amazing or what?

Much to your surprise (or not), I'm on a diet, again. Yes, I know this is pretty dumb of me. I have a lot of diet plans. They last much more than a week normally. And I don't think any recent diet plans of mine have failed, which is a good thing. However, as I said, there's a picnic tomorrow. So I'm kinda confused. o_o I've successfully skipped dinner for two days straight. Only ate noodles and an apple today. You might think this is crazy, but I'm starting to like the feeling of hunger. It's very uncomfortable (duh!), but it reminds me of how skinny I'd be if it continues!!!!! :) million smiles.

I stayed at home today, lying on my bed most of the time. Feeling a bit lost with my life. Don't know what I wanna be, what I wanna do in the near future. I think Yehlin's problem is getting into me. What if I can't enjoy happily without feeling any guilt? It's not only that actually. It's the many many different problems I get that makes me so frustrated right now.

I don't even know what I'm trying to do already. I lost track, and I need you to guide me back. I guess for now, I'll let my life on loose. Let it do whatever it wants, let nature take its course. If it's meant to be, then it's meant to be. Hai. Sometimes caring too much, sucks. Especially if your efforts go down the drain. :/

From your low self-esteem friend,
Vernice.

2011-12-02T14:15:00.002+08:00

纯真友谊? 可能吗?

Keep looking into the mirror, staring at my new double eyelids. Can't help but feel a bit frustrated that they don't look exactly the same. Cause my eyes were never the same in the first place. Oh well, I just don't feel that pleased anymore. I don't actually feel regretful. If I had to choose all over again, I'll rather go through the surgery. But I miss my single eyelids a lot. They're sooooo cute. HAHAH. Am I praising myself? :b Ooops.

Maybe it's because my eyes haven't fully recover, it's still a bit swollen after the removal of the stitches. Hopefully it'll look better. I don't want my eyes to be like this, though it's quite pretty. ^^ I guess I'll get used to it? Currently I think that I don't look like me, I don't feel comfortable with how I look.. I don't quite think that it suits me. And I start to wonder, whether it was the right choice. But what's done is done! There's no turning back! So.. I've gotta live with it. Or re-do the folds next time. Hahaha. See how. After this, I might be going LASIK when I'm older. Probably 18-21 years of age. Hehe.

I pray that my wounds heal faster.. I wish that it'll look nicer. :(

2011-11-30T01:57:00.003+08:00

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

Had the chance to finally go out! Stayed at home for four days straight. I'm sucha loner. #foreveralone yeah. T.T Why do I lead such a sad life? No one want ask me out :'( Anyway!!! Jonathan asked me whether want go his house with Jingworm Xav! SO I WENT. Wheeeee~ Damn fun. I learnt how to play Bridge! Omg, am I smart or what! At first I was sooooo confused. But it got better after awhile. I was addicted :b

And I conclude that I'm really lucky. I rocked at Monopoly. Hahahah, I owned so many properties and was still damn rich. But it got boring after awhile. Heh. Went back to play cards. And talked for a bit. Actually watching them play DotA also not bad lah. It actually looks the same as the Werewolf game. Got night and day, and have to kill your enemies.. Hmmm interesting. I want learn but also no use. I don't have the game. T.T Poor thing, Vernice!

So for today. Wasn't suppose to go out actually. But due to certain circumstances, I became an ATM. So people need me for money, then ask me out lah? Good. So ironic. I am not even rich. Hai. In fact, I feel so broke right now. :( All my money gone and I didn't even do any shopping this holiday (other than for prom). So sad right! :( I want sooooo many things. Need bugis for this purpose. Heh.

So I went to Chloe's house to bake. After being convinced by Jingwen and Chloe, and after convincing my mum to let me go.. (She didn't really allow cause I'm doing unstitching tomorrow). They made gingerbread! Which was really gingery. While I made vanilla cupcakes!!! Look like red velvet or not!!!!!!!! >:) I'm so prouda myself. The icing was better but I don't know how to make it fluffy. :( Anyone willing to teach me? I love Amanda's sister's icing. They're really good and not that sweet as well! Perfect to my tasting. Okay honestly, I hate making icing. I suck really bad at it :( Ultimate sadness right now. Oh yea, gotta get down to baking with Amanda and Rachel some time soon!!!! Red velvet cake yes? ^^

So yesterday, while I was bathing. Actually after I bathed, I was using my phone in the toilet. And I dropped it on the floor. It hit some edge, and my phone screen cracked. I haven't really tell my mum. I just told her I dropped it on the floor, didn't say it cracked. I'm afraid. She'll scold me for sure. She has been asking me to take care of it several times, tried persuading me to get a phone cover A LOT of times. But I refused. Fuck lah, I was so depressed ytd I cried cause of it. Wow, impressive. Crying with an injured eye. First time.

But I'm really afraid. I should tell her when today ends. :/ Hai. My phone looks hideous right now. As you can see, the front camera is scratched. Oh yea, and you can see my double eyelid too!!!!!!!!! ^^ It's healing. But I don't know why the bruises are getting even more serious. Bruises under my eye area. It's so bad I look very scary. Like a ghost or something. Ew. But my eyelids are healing at a super fast rate! I'm impressed. Heh. Gonna do the unstitching tomorrow like I said so earlier! Really scared cause Di Gene said it's damn painful. Like numb-pain?! Wah, the thought of it scares me to the bones.

Oh oh, you know I've been watching movies recently? There was this day I watched 7 movies!!! A lot right! Like movie marathon. My eyes were exhausted like hell. And I recently started on another drama. It's called 我可能不会爱你. It's really nice, and the main actor smiled just like Ee Ching. Wow. I was stunned. The actress is Ariel Lin. And she's really pretty in there!!! Omg, the whole show's nice ah. But Weiwen said it was boring. Oh well, different tastes!

Anyway, I should go now. It's 2 already. Gotta get up early in the morning, bathe my dog, clean up room's floor and paint my nails! Gonna earn $20 just like that. (Clean my room floor + dog area.) $30 = Clean entire house floor. Wow, easy money eh? :D Better than working outside. Hehe I love my mum. I hope she doesn't scold me .. for my phone. PRAY!!!!!!!

Okay, gotta get going already. Bye loves!
I'm glad everything turned out this way. I love it.

2011-11-28T22:17:00.002+08:00

Day 13: Someone you wish would forgive you.

You. You. You. You. You. And You. I want forgiveness from so many people. :/ I don't even know whether I'm at fault. But nevertheless, I need forgiveness to lessen my guilt. I don't feel like writing anything much here. Cause it hurts to remember everything. I guess.. I wish everything will be perfect. Please? Just wait.

Will you forgive me? I'm sorry.

2011-11-26T13:06:00.002+08:00

Day 12: The person who has caused you the most pain in your life.

Tough choice. I usually don't let it come to a point when someone is capable of causing pain in my life. Instead, I let it go. Why allow someone to upset you? Is it even worth it? There's this Chinese saying which says it's better to live a minute feeling happy, rather than upset. How true is that! >:) I mean, surely there will be a period of unhappiness and blahblah shit. But it will be over, as long as you allow yourself to get over it!!! ^^ right?

Honestly, I've tried thinking of who I should write about in this post. But there's no one. :/ Am I that pathetic? Hahaha. I guess I don't really remember sad stuffs that easily. If I really have to choose, it'd be my family members. Because I believe the closer you are to somebody, the more pain you'll feel if you're hurt by them. Thus, I bet that they have been my main source of sorrow (of course happiness as well). My tears flow for them and mostly them only. Hai. Anyway, I've already talk about them in my Day 3 and Day 4. So go take a look if you haven't yeah! :)

Actually, I was thinking of writing about you. But, meh. What are you? Who are you to give me pain? >:) Yeah, I'm this fucking mean. So? I'm different now. Heh. No lah. I just feel that, friends come and go. So.. we gotta get used to all this pain!!! Of leaving, of regrets. Until one day, that pain is nothing to us anymore. But for the case of family, it's different. You're stuck in that family, there's nothing you can do to change that fact! SO YOU GOTTA LIVE WITH IT. ACCUMULATE ALL THE PAIN YEAH. LOL. I sound so sadistic.

Okay okay. This post is soooo useless and crappy. But there's some sense in there okay!!! :) I don't usually make sense. Heh.

2011-11-25T17:57:00.003+08:00

Do you know I've been thinking about you lately?

Am I wrong to feel this way? If so, then I'm truly sorry. I'm so confused now, I don't even know how I got into this state. It's way too sudden, I really hope everything will go well.. I hope.. I don't regret what I choose to do. Just so you know, it isn't anyone's fault that I feel this certain way. It's just this sudden realisation, that you're.. we're not right. It has always been so fake. I mean, it was real, but I just couldn't find anything worth.. fighting for. Not anymore. :'( I'm so fucking sorry. I would cry right now, but no, not with my eyes right now. Heh *Inserts cold joke here*. It was never comfortable.. though you were such a special friend. Knew it long long long long long ago.

Thought about what Yehlin told me a few days ago. Satisfaction. I mean, if you're happy with what you have now, you won't.. want something else, right? But if you realise something's so much better. Then it really does means that you're not satisfied. No? Okay, whatever. I'm quite confused at what I'm trying to convey.

Anyway, my eyes are so much better right now. Although there's this awkward muscle pull whenever I look up. My mum says its the stitches. Hopefully. I don't wanna feel like this for the rest of my life!!! Gonna go back a week later, next Wed. Which will be Weehao's birthday. Heh. Happy advanced? In case I forget. They're no longer swollen. I basically look like how I'd normally look with purple eyeshadow all around my eyes.. Just with double eyelids. Heh.
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I don't know whether you feel what I feel. Cause I have no idea why I keep thinking of you lately. Is it wrong? :'( Not suppose to be this way, but I can't help myself. Ugh. I was wrong, I was mean. I don't even know what I should say right now. It's not like you'll care anymore. But I hope you know, I was really happy. Whatever you did, just that I didn't say a word about it. Cause I couldn't. But now, I can.

You were never an option.

Yes, I'm a fucking idiot demoness who doesn't appreciate what she has currently. But what I can do? It's uncontrollable. It's lost.

2011-11-24T11:29:00.028+08:00

BLACKOUT + SURGERY

It'll be a very special post today cause I have a lot of pictures to put up! I have a lot to say as well, but we'll see whether I have the mood to type them out. Hehe. So before I start talking about my prom, let me start with my surgery first yeah. I can't believe I've done it already. Been thinking of it for a year plus. And initially, I wasn't really sure I wanted it. It's er, double eyelid surgery plus medial blahblahblah surgery. So that's two surgery altogether.

It started with 6 injections on each eye. Four on top, two below. The ones at the top felt like someone pinching my pimple LOL. The ones below hurt like crap. You can actually feel the numbness behind your eye. That's how ew it is. I kept whining like a lost puppy LOL. I rested for awhile, until my eyelids turned white. Then it's time for the cutting!! HAHAHA. It was painless, but nonetheless, I felt fear. I could still feel the pressure of the Professor's hands and the sound of the scissors etc. It's scary, and at times, I regret. But oh well, it's too late! :b

I kinda miss my single eyelids right now. But nah, hopefully when my swollen eyes cool off, it'll look so much better! :D Now I look rather hideous, as if I'm ready for Halloween. The stiches, blood clots and the bruises. Honestly, there's a tinge of regret and sorrow for myself. But there's nothing I can do!! My eyes, are weird. One is really swollen. The other is.. not that swollen at all!! O.O I'm sucha weird person!!!

Last picture of me with my single eyelids. :(

All the markings on my eye. So many flaws on my face hahahaha.

Post surgery. Wheeeee sunglasses time! I look like that at home now. Okay right now, I'm wearing my specs cause I'm short sighted!!! But other than that, I've been wearing my sunglasses!!! ^^
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OKAY SO HERE IS IT! The prom pictures some of you might have been waiting for! Or not. HAHAH WHATEVER THE CASE, it's hereeeee!!! ^^

I went to watch You Are The Apple Of My Eye with Reine in the afternoon. She was late LOL. Like really late, but we managed to catch the movie!! :D It was really awesome hahahah. Felt like crying but I didn't. I suck my tears back in to avoid embarrassment. Hehe. I don't like to cry in the cinemas. It was totally worth watching. I'd watch again, but I think it's not showing anymore? :O

Afterwhich, we went back to my house. Radiance came, then Yehlin, then Huiting!!! We changed, make up, then left for the Prom Venue!!! :)

It's really blur cause my hands were shaking and I didn't change the camera mode. Lazy as a pig. :b

I look fat in all the pictures. Hai, sad life. Why I not photogenic?! T.T It's time to slim down even further!!! :D I'll stop when I reach milestone 10.0.

With Mdm Karima!!!! HEHEHEHEH.

I like this picture a lot!!! 4M FTW!!!! ^^

I wear heels still shorter than so many guys. Hai. But that's good, that's good! :)

LOL MY CAMERA BLUR UNTIL VERY SCARY. Everyone's a semi ghost. All disappearing in my pictures. But it's not my fault! The cameraman's fault! He probably covered the flash of the camera.. :b

This was the worse picture taken of the day. HAHAHAHAH. I'm so sorry guys. It would have been perfect if it was well-taken!!! :(

OMG DIGENE WHY YOU BRING YOUR SUNGLASSES HERE?! INDOOR LEH MISTER.

Benedict, don't disappear please!!!

I remember when I was about to take picture with Lester, Yehlin wanted to take with him. LOL then she was upset (jokingly). HAHAHAHAHAH. THEN OF COURSE I LET HER LAH. Haiyo, sisters over misters leh!

Spasm face LOL. HAHAHAHAH. First time smile until so big uh? ;b

MDM LOW!!! :D Yay, so many teachers that day! Too bad Miss Teo had to leave early :(

Hahaha this picture is damn funny, he 'disappeared' a lot! And even when I'm wearing heels, he's taller than me by a lot!!! One head taller??!!?

Prince Charming here yo!!! ^^ Knew he would wear something like this hehehe.

PROM QUEEN HERE YO!!!! ^^ Congrats huh!! All the girl prom pageant candidates are from dance!!! Lynn got the dancing queen award. Duh!!!! <3 Ma girl. Anyway, I really like Pris's dress!!! It's super pretty please!!!!

I haven't even get ready before Chloe snapped this picture of me and Elson. Oh well! :b

PROM KING!!! JEFFREY SIOL!!!!! :DDDDD Hahahahaha so proud of my NDCC partner. *trying hard to che guan xi* HAAHAHHA. His dance not bad sia. Damn shockingly good ^^b

Maddy!! <3 This is what happens when my camera PMS. T.T Nvm, she has a picture with me too!!!

I took damn friggin long to take this picture with Xav. He keeps wanting to look tall in the picture. Okay, I don't expose you. LOL, or did I just do it? :b But oh well, he looks tall here yo!!!

JOEY! Wah, she tell me she wearing short-ER heels. But she's still taller than me. It's okay though, cause I don't wanna be the tallest. Heh.

Can you see the failness here?! The thing is upside-down. LOL!!!!

Okay I getting lazy to pose already. HEHEH JUST SMILEEEE~

Meijia!!! My awesomest senior that I feel like whacking every single time I see her. Hohohoho. I'll never forget man!!!

Hehe what's this man? How come I don't know?!

Haiyo, gays behind me. LOL. Entertaining ttm.

LOL THEY WANTED ME TO TAKE PICTURES OF THEIR BELTS. Okay, see hor, got belt!!! Nice belts btw!! :D

Boss!!!

Doesn't Zhuyu look Korean here?! Damn style sia. I like his hair. ^^v

Ultimate gayness. Omg.

Anyway, prom was really awesome. All the dancing.. Brings away my sorrow. Didn't know how to dance. Initally I felt rather awkward but all is gone when I start dancing. It's WONDERFULLLLL. Hehehe. There were many unhappy moments though. Reine lost her first prize cause she misplaced her ticket. And the person didn't wanna return her. Ugh, evil people. But reine finally used her polaroid!! Which was awesome :D I like the pictures! :) I don't have any though :(

LOL The food was so-so I thought. Didn't really eat much honestly. Like no appetite yeah. Wasted. Love the pastries though!!! <3 The prom also made me realise a lot of things.. Feeling much more confused than I was before.

At least the pain in my eyes is making me forget all those .. thoughts. I don't know what to do now. But sorrows aside, I love this prom a lot!!!! I will miss my friends very much. :') I can't believe Prom's over, just like that. Hai. Time really flies. I wanna go clubbing suddenly. HAHA. Like school clubbing hehehehe. ^^b

Bye loves.

2011-11-24T10:32:00.003+08:00

SELANGOR TRIP.

Before I start, I shall show you my prom dress :D Chio not? HAHHAA. Bling bling bling~ It definitely fits the theme please! :b But it's expensive.. worth it though!! ^^

Polaroid Lynn gave me!! :) YAY! My second polaroid that I have.
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My trip~ Actually most of the pictures is just me. LOL. Being too bored everywhere I go.

Mudskippers!!! ^^ Anyway, I didn't really take much pictures cause I felt like dying. The whole trip was pretty boring. The fireflies that I went to see wasn't that mesmerizing at all. Just.. bling bling bugs that don't even wanna fly. >:( Unhappy for the whole trip. I just wanted to go home and spend time with my friends, in SG. Oh well, what's done is done!

I tried to eat as little as possible during the trip. I didn't even eat rice please! 9 course everyday, three meals. WTF. 27 course per day please. What to do! :( For prom, I'll eat little!!! I didn't have much appetite anyway. The food was.. so-so. I'm at milestone 4.0 now. In case you have no idea what's that, it's just my weight loss. Hehe.

Even my doctor told me I've slimmed down! OOOOOH YEAH. Hahahah. Oh my doctor, is my surgeon! :D Shall blog it together with my prom night later.. When I feel like it kay! I should rest my eyes now. Wheeeeeeeeeee~